KageJason

And I'm very very sorry for not produciing any art for this month :C

Hello guys, it's been a while huh, sorry for the lack of art, the reason is because I hold nothing but anger and contempt for myself as I can't seem to draw what I'd like without ripping my hair out in frustration, because it often never looks decent enough to upload. 

also I've been messing with models and VRChat, and custom avatars, which is ALSO driving me nuts.

I am also really, really lonely, as i seem to get attached to the avatars i've been working on and feeling as if they're a part of me. 


and wow, I am not okay. 

YES HE RETURNS FINALLY HALLAJUAH.

I have been waiting for this day!

*tip* m'lady



i dunno, here's a journal i guess

I have this mental process where i treat comments as people's gazes. when people say something it lets me know how a person views a particular work, when people don't say anything, i just feel like i've let people down with more crap, while i enjoy drawing, i like sharing stuff more. 

I'd understand if it was just 2-3 works but continuous works for 2 years has just gotten to me, i interpret that as "Your works suck, stop showing me this garbage." and it just frustrates me to no end when I get the constant feeling that my work sucks.

Some people say i should be happy with what i draw, i'm never happy with my drawings because, in my own opinion, i think it's shit, and due to me being a total fucking dumbshit, i never know how to improve my works, so i just do the same thing, i need someone to guide me on how to improve my stuff, because i can't accurately judge stuff i do. It's like me being in a dark room, i need someone, to not puppet me and force me to draw the way they want me too, but push me in the right direction of improving my stuff.